I get it now...

No need to pretend anymore and no need to feel the need to share.  I know what's going on.  I know YOU know and you wont' tell me.  That's fine.  It's big.  I know that.  But that definitely changes how information will flow in the future.  Cryptic?  Yep.  Don't care. 

 

I'm in a mood.  I figured out why, though.  I've been out of hormones for a few days!!  So that explains why I'm pissy for no good reason. 

 

I need to do a load of laundry tonight for weekend clothes.  Actually, I'm not sure I'll bother.  They'll just get smokey anyway, so maybe I'll just do laundry Sunday and wear whatever happens to be clean at the time.  That sounds good!  I need to work on freelance tonight, anyway, and get that invoice in to get me another paycheck.

I am frustrated

Right.  I know that's news, invisible friends, but I am!!  Someone who was my best friend offended me and hurt me to the point that I can no longer justify being friends.  So that conversation is gone.  I'm frustrated at work because i'm going from one computer to the next because they won't fucking buy the software I need!  It's pissing me off.  Turlach fucked up the weekend and I really am very pissed about that.  Fuck it.  maybe I won't go home and papa and fin can come down here to watch harry potter and Turlach can sit at home in his fucked up world. 

 

Everything is fucked today.  I hate being pissy.  Fucking hate it.

I am extraordinarily bitchy

Could be that I haven't taken happy pills for a couple days.  I need to keep water in my room so I remember to do that. 

 

Could be that I don't want to go to work.

 

Could be that I didn't do anything this weekend so I feel like a cow. 

 

Could be that I miss my mom & best friend. 

 

Could be that Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince SUCKED.  I'm very disappointed.