My scar is very irritated today. I'm tired. Can't sleep. I hate being tired.
Rowen asked me to do a project for work. I really shouldn't, but I probably will. I'm more bored than I am tired.
Seriously though, I want to sleep.
I've been having a really hard time with the no babies thing. I tried to go into support chat rooms but all they were doing is soliciting for cyber sex. It was very frustrating and disappointing.
I'm lonely, too. I sit here all day with no one to chat with. I text with friends and family, but I want new friends. I want to talk to someone who understands what I'm going through and how I'm feeling. And for some reason, I know there's something in me eager to seek out a fight with a stranger who says they don't want to talk to me because I can't have children. I want to yell and scream and cry, but I can't. I cry everyday, but not like I want to cry. I just want to boohoo, but for some reason I haven't let myself let go.
Ok. gonna find something to either occupy my brain or make me fall the hell asleep.
